My mother and her masks: Alcohol, trauma, and strength.
My mother and her masks: Alcohol, trauma, and strength.
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我的母亲和她的面具：酒精、创伤和力量。
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10.1016/j.josat.2023.209239
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2024
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Crouch,MariaC
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我妈妈很漂亮。有一次，我记得开车沿着格伦高速公路从瓦西拉到阿拉斯加的安克雷奇，一个男人差点把我们撞出公路。他对我母亲的眼睛是如此激烈，以至于他的轮子，就像他的意图一样，转向我们，拼命地想以任何可能的方式与她相撞。事后看来，我也住在离我母亲很远的地方，热切地渴望她转过身来看我。她是一个浅肤色的阿拉斯加土著妇女，她会说“印第安人”代表她的Deg Hit'an（阿萨巴斯卡）遗产。她身材娇小，体重在100磅左右。她一生中的大部分时间，但她的精神是强大的，广阔的，汹涌的。无论是消极的还是积极的。在我们的文化中，我们在舞蹈、歌曲和仪式中戴着面具。我们戴着面具作为祈祷和精神领域的化身。有时她被伪装成红狐（Choghlugguy）。然后，她是在她的美丽，独立，相互依存，和嬉戏。这才是她真正的样子然而，大多数时候她被伪装成危险的棕熊（Gegha vixinijit）。然后她会在精神上杀死自己和我，从我们的身体上咬一口，充分咀嚼，然后再回去吃更多。酒精会像血液一样从她身上流出来，而这些血液不可能来自我们身上的伤口。我希望身体上的伤害，因为我至少知道疼痛可以减轻。
My mother was beautiful. Once, I remember driving down the Glenn Highway from Wasilla to Anchorage, Alaska, and a man nearly ran us off the road. He was making eyes at my mother so fiercely that his wheel, just like his intensions, veered towards us trying desperately to collide with her in any way possible. In hindsight, I too lived just outside of reaching my mother, earnestly yearning for her to turn and see me.She was a light skinned Alaska Native woman,“Indian” she would say to represent her Deg Hit’an (Athabascan) heritage. Her frame was petite and hovered around 100 lbs. for most of her life, but her spirit was strong, expansive, and torrential. Both for negative and positive. In our culture, we wear masks in dance and song and ceremony. We wear masks as invocation and in incarnation of the spiritual realms. Sometimes she was masked as red Fox (Choghlugguy). Then she was in her beauty, independence, interdependence, and playfulness. This is who she truly was. However, mostly she was masked as dangerous brown Bear (Gegha vixinijit). Then she would spiritually kill herself and me by chomping bites from our bodies and chewing fully before going back for more. Alcohol would run through her like the blood that could not come from the wounds we carried. I wished for injuries of the physical kind because with those I at least knew the pain could subside.